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Life has not been treating me well. My mood has not improved and I'm currently on "trial" for my medication, I keep telling them that it's not working but they say that I just need to give it more time. I try to not let it affect me much, I know it's trial and error and my body is already fighting against itself and I just keep growing tired and tired. There are some days where everything just hurts no matter how much medication I take and I just lay down my bed until I feel strong enough to let my wings out and sit on my chair.
Lavander has been there for me during all of this, even though she is hurting and suffering her own struggles, people are just being down right assholes with her and the "real" world is shitty towards her. I hate it. I tell her to just say here on Moonrise with me but she insists that she wants to know more, and I don't blame her, I also want to be out and see places I have never seen before... But I'm scared. I'm currently growing my beard back, Lavander says that I can do whatever I want with my body and body hair and I think she is right. I want to let my beard grow, who cares, it makes me happy. I just... I don't know man, I dont want to be as depressed anymore even though I know it's not something that can be fixed right away... Agh, who cares. Mom came to visit me without saying anything, she was... So scared. I didn't want to invade her privacy so I just let her sit there with me while also just talking about our lifes. She is scared someone will take her away from me, why would she think that?, I'm old anyways but I know she wants to make up all the time she was gone from my life...
It hurts seeing your mom like this. I just want her to be happy, man.