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Last updated: 22 / Oct / 2024

Sometimes I feel like I never woke up, I never stopped being manipulated by everybody around me, not letting me choose whatever choises I have for me, not letting me fuck up every now and then. I feel like I'm living a lie, a lie I do not deserve to be on.
I have to survive I have to. but things are complicated. I feel like every time I see the sky I don't see life, I see... Pixels. Nothing is real anymore, ever since I got my powers I just don't. Feel. Real. I tried to talk to this with my therapist and she said that "Well, you are suffering from Derealization, you need to keep your feet on the ground and have people to be there for you on those episodes." and. How do I tell her that the people around me just. Don't. Feel. Real.
It's like I'm seeing... Ideas of people. Nothing feels real anymore and I don't know how to escape this. Maybe I finally went insane. What do you think? I will be updating this every once in a while. I hope you keep track of me. Please don't ever leave me. You are the only real person I know. Please. This is an old entry, dear.