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Hey so How the FUCK do I cope with My Ex returning to life and then DYING Again On me. How do I cope with This. What did I do to Deserve this, God keeps ignoring me and I'm tired of being His punching bag.
I try and Try to get better, ever since I started therapy, but I feel like I keep falling into a Hole and I will never be able to Get Out.
My dad has more Kids and I feel an Obligation of taking care of them, to Show them How to live and Cope with who their Father is, everything is going worse and I hate it. I just want to reset everything and Just. Do. Things. Right. But I cant I need to move On I Need To Get Better. I have to get Better. For me, for my family, for my best Friend, for the people I love. I can't fall. I need to Live For Me. I started to talk more with A Friend of mine, he is scared of his Destiny, I am too. I don't want to lose him. I'm terrified of cars I hate Cars, Everything about Them Makes me want To Puke my Guts out, just like alcohol in a way, I can Cope with Alcohol better than I can do With cars though. My brother said to me to travel and have a Vacation and when He mentioned his Car I started shaking. I know he is responsible but I hate it and I Dont Want to Tell him What happened for me to Be This scared. I'm sorry little brother, I Will be Stronger for you.